The Deepest Longing: A Roadmap to Hope
Mary Karn
(Bright Horizon Books, Nov. 22, 2018)
Inside of each heart there’s a question: “Where do I belong?” Without realizing it, we fear the answer is “nowhere”. So many of us are longing for something—searching for something—without knowing what that “something” is. We may not even realize the longing exists, but rather experience it as a vague emptiness and a draw to feel something—anything—so we look to various places, substances and people to fill it.This is one woman’s journey—from childhood to 90 years—of pain, hiding, striving, longing, and the many lessons learned. May it be a help to you on your life’s journey.“I don’t understand you God, I don’t understand other people and I don’t understand myself.” This is what I cried out to God in utter frustration after falling to my knees in the middle of the night in a hotel room in Las Vegas. All through my childhood I thought that if I don’t think and I don’t feel, then it won’t show on my face and then I can’t get into trouble. That was the way I tried to live and not get into trouble. It was my way of stuffing down the pain of the past. These were the inner feelings of the child that I kept hidden for so much of my life. I invite you to walk with me, back into the past, and experience the journey of my life as you glean what you can apply to yours.